Am I an attention-seeking mean bad person?

So i started doing photography cuzzz my bestfriend did it. and she got alot of attention doing it. soooo i started doing it cuz i waz jealous of her and i tried getting attention but my photography sucks. anyways, she got mad at me but i told her my photography was better thn hers. and then at my bday party i went TOTALY psycho on her and i thought about killing her. my boyfriend had to hold me back. and i have with my bf 5 times a day and i told everyone i waz prego so i culd get attention. oh and i look like jay leno and tell everyone i get molested by my brother. he almost got sent to jail but he didnt rly me. i realllyyyyyy like attention. lol. so am i a bad person?